“Food is going to always be the hard part”

“Food is going to always be the hard part”

It has been seven months I have been on this weight loss journey; you would think that I would have the food thing down. I thought I did, then Christmas came along and I fell off the wagon. I am a food addict, so adding some sweets and chip into my diet was not a good idea. So, after Christmas I got cocky and thought I could still eat that shit and lose weight, wrong! As an addict I can talk myself into eating a bag of chips very quickly. I have great support from my wife, I don’t think she has an addiction like I do, she can say no easily. This journey is a long one; it takes long to put it on longer, to take it off. Exercise is the fun part of this. So last night when I was bitching on the way home to my Friend Ben, he said “Brian the Food is going to always be the hard part” It was nice to hear I was not insane. So I am proud to say I have made it 24 hours now without any chips, cookie or Ice cream and here is hoping that I go the next 24.

Lost

Lost

It has been a very different week then what I normally have, LOST is the best way to describe what I am going through this week. I don’t know what happened, but I seem to have lost my way. Thursday night I had a nightmare that Big Brian was back, and he was bigger than ever. On Friday I had to weigh in with Damir and I was up some weight. I thought I was doing well with the food, but I am not sure. So now I am very lost. Also yesterday I had the first feeling like “man I don’t feel like going into the gym tonight” I was told it would happen, but I never believed that it would. So after punching out at work I grabbed my phone and went to call my friend and life coach to kick my ass to get in Alive. I started to dial, but I stopped & took a deep breath said to myself “Just go, you are better than this.” Yes I went!

The good thing is that Damir is really kicking my ass this week. Time to dig deep and find my way back.

What will it be like!

This week I have been dreaming again, I have been wondering what it it will be like to walk into a Wal-Mart and buy 6 pairs of underwear, two shirts, and a pair of jeans and only spend 40 bucks. Right now that would not even buy me a pair of jeans. I wonder what it will be like to be able to go out with my friends to a restaurant and not have to tell the hostess where I need to sit so I can fit. I wonder what it will be like to have woman get giggly and giddy around me like they do around Ben and Damir.

It is very exciting to think of the future, last night on the biggest loser Bob put on the amount of weight (in weight vests and belts) that I started my weight loss journey with. 520 lbs, He moaned about how much weight they put on him. Could not believe how much his body hurt. I thought wow this he really is seeing what life was like, is like right now. Then he really pissed me off he turned to the contestant h and said “I don’t know how you go through life like this, I get to take this off in a minute. Do know how long it will take me to get that off you? Months!” Months try it will take me years Asshole, however I hope it only takes him months. But if he does lose the weight that fast I don’t think it will stay off. So I will never stop, fitness is here to stay in my life! I love it! I love it more then I love coke zero, my friends will probably fall out of seats when read this, because they know how much I love coke zero. So I know my future is going to be great. I will buy clothes at Wal-Mart one day, and I will sit anywhere in a restaurant. It is going to Rock!! I can’t wait!!!

What will it be like

Getting back on track

Getting back on track

So Christmas and New Years is all done, it is time to reel things back in. Yes the holidays were great; I wish I could say I made it through the holidays without gaining any weight, but I did gain a little. However I did make it through the holidays without guilt or beating myself up over what I put in my body. Now with the New Year comes a new outlook on my weight loss Journey. I started the year off right, working-out with a friend on New Year’s Day. In January I plan to eat very clean, my new range arrives this week so on Sundays I will be menu planning, shopping, and cooking for the week. I plan to eat like I did during the nutrition boot camp three weeks of the month. My goals for the month of January lose 6 to 8 pounds, drink 8 to 10 glass of water every day, Finish the book I got for Christmas about healthy eating, and walk on the treadmill 4 times a week for at least of 30mins.